Be careful what you wish for

In earlier posts I had mused how I love the thought of having someone locked up in chastity for me.   I can’t explain why, but it is a huge turn on for me. Having that kind of control does factor into it. Plus some of the devices just look damn sexy. This has now become a reality for me.

It is everything I thought it would be and more. This fetish started out as a casual interest. I thought it would be fun to have my sub locked up now and then. But once I got a taste of what it was like, the occasional chaste sub wasn’t enough.  I love having that control over him. I own his cock. I love how he needs me to be able to use it. He can’t just go masturbate anytime he likes when he has the device on. I hold the key and my permission is needed before he is able to do anything with my cock.  He is kept chaste for long periods of time. This is no game. Not play. My slave has had a long time need for this but I am not into it only because it is a fetish of his and this is to please him. This is something I’ve realized I really want too. Independent of his desires. There is just one thing though……

I have a very healthy sex drive. b turns me on immensely. I can’t keep my hands off him. I get so turned on when he is wearing nothing but the device and his cuffs.  I want to fuck his brains out. BUT my want and desire to control him, stops me. Both needs in me are strong, but my need to control usually takes over. I get satisfaction out of his suffering for me. Hearing his moans when his desires escalate and the device gets tighter on him as I touch him and tease him.

Because of my sexual needs, b is not in permanent chastity, as in never being released. But he his chastity is for long periods of time. Months at a time. And when he is out, it’s only for as long as I get what I want from him, then he is locked back up again. I never knew I could be into this as much as I am.